Halo 3 Ego Trip

Halo 3 Ego Trip

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A few months ago I won the Millington Naval Base’s Halo 3 tournament; I barely pulled this feat off seeing as I had an appropriate adversary. Now, I’m not going to say I’m perfect, but I’m damn near close to it when it comes to Halo. This is something earned (skill), not necessarily gained seeing as you have to be unemployed, or basically live with your parents and have no social life what so ever. Headshots are attained… three shot BR isn’t luck, it’s skill… Being an egotistical asshole is attained as well, which is why I quit playing Halo 3 for the most part. Xbox live has been going strong since it’s release in 2002, but the entire system promotes a nation wide pissing contest.

I guess I started to think about quitting Xbox live after I started several arguments via email; that led to arguments over the phone. Yelling at the top of my lungs through a headpiece at opponents wasn’t quite enough for me, so I needed to yell over the phone as well. I believe I have personally threatened the life of many people via live…That just doesn’t seem mentally sound. I never threatened to kill anyone, but I have made many propositions to fight in real life after I got wiped across the floor on MLG Guardian/MLG Slayer game type (Whatever the fuck its called.. All the MLG kids name the shit like ,“M..L.G. TSK5.50” and other little fancy abbreviations).

Anyway, the online gaming is typically a pissing contest. I used to get infuriated when I lost, even if it was a stupid game mode meant to be fun, I took my head shots very seriously. I still despise “Infection” game types for the most part because it isn’t serious at all, but it is good to play for fun which is what most of us forget about. I quit playing based on the fact that I genuinely felt guilty after killing that same noob for the 18th time in a row. I just know there is somebody having a terrible day out there, and me shooting them over and over in the face and then calling them a bitch isn’t helping matters at all. I got so good, I just decided to quit for my sake, and others because “karma” exists just as the air we breath.

If you really think about it, video games are similar to drugs. It gets you through problems in life by getting the user basically ignoring them. Here, focus on something else for a while. Lose out there, but in here, safe in your room, you can win! An internal attitude like that is designed for epic failure. These are rather abstract concepts, but the lines become sharper when you look at the issue as a whole. The ego trips are an escape from some sort of shortcoming in reality. My ego issue was I didn’t have a job, and at the time I was literally 100 pounds over weight… I wonder why? My Halo skills corresponded with my weight if you get my drift. Instead of bicep curls, I was killing Master Chief zombies. Instead of 100 crunches, you could catch me simply zoned in on “the next battle to be won”. I was losing the war, that was the only problem.

Personally absolute trust in God has helped me see a clear path ahead. I would suggest the reader to maybe look in the mirror. Are the games just fun, or is it truly an escape? Are you lying, or are you being honest with yourself? Is it your life, or your lifestyle? Some people are balanced and happy, but I’m just here to remind you even people that claim to plan on making a mental escape of some kind. Plan for this week: I’m going to focus on reality and throw the virtual reality to the pros.

-PCP